well i'd spend the morning in bed with a good book..no scratch that a great book. i'd spend an hour in the shower and go to the park with friends..eating strawberry's and drinking apple juice. we would chat about everything and anything..primark carpark..lol 

go back home and have yet another shower. then i'd go out to a rock club i love..watch luke and mike air guitar like heroes..lol jump up and down to muse. scream loudly at the dj when the r&b rubbish takes over. leave before the rabble..go back to a friends flat..cuddle down into a giant blow up bed and argue about alien films. 

yup a perfect monday. 

or prehaps just not bother getting dressed watch tv, and read till 8 or 9 then walk the dog in the dark for about an hour stairing at the stars and wishing i had someone to watch them with. 

which is how i spend every other day of my life. ow dear

my 
first real kiss...it came at a time when the world was crashing down around me..it means as much now as it did 3 years ago. sad isn't it..to think it took me while i was 20 to have my first kiss...geek girls never have any fun.

my 
first real kiss...it came at a time when the world was crashing down around me..it means as much now as it did 3 years ago. sad isn't it..to think it took me while i was 20 to have my first kiss...geek girls never have any fun.

i don 't for one i'm not irish, two i'm not a catholic..and three its my grandad's birthday,,,our family has never celebrated st patrics day. just they way it is.

 i'm artistic, and some people are too closed minded sometimes. they think lateraly..and not outside of the box.

i bring popcorn and malteasers...trust honor humor and a non judgemental ear. 

my birth stone, and fire. (something most won't get)

 what happened to us?

your really   cool, and sweet, and such a good friend. your really lovely and have such a good personality.




arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

going to a friends   house. there are many really bad outcomes and nightmare situations which could happen.

1. get yelled out, and have to explain myself and my feelings, (i surpose the good would be to clear the air)
2. seeing my worst nightmare (no more waiting for it to happen..get it over and done with)
3. being ignored (nothing good could come from this, other then i drift deeper into self hate, and hate of my ... and my issolation from my friends. something i don't want to go through again.)

 i think it has to be for not wanting to go out. 

i got bullid a lot, and hated leaving the house, i wish now i had as i ended up with an american accent,(from all the tv) which still haunts me..arrrr damn me for being a minic

 when i was in school i knew i wanted to go to art college, but my school only gave me one college to look at, which was realy diffecult to get to. when i was in a advice lesson i saw a box of application forms for a rotherham college. i grabed one when the woman wasn't looking, and left. i got home and filled it in, not knowing anything about the place. i didn't know where it was, or how i'd get there, but something felt right about it. i heard nothing for a couple of weeks, and the morning i was going to accept a place at sheffield college, which was the one that was hard to get to, a letter came from rotherham, asking for me to reapply, as they'd lost my information. i decided to do just that, i sent my application off again, and within a few days had an interview. the first time i saw the place was my interview, and i knew i'd made the right decision. the tutor pritty much said i was in straight away. 

a few more weeks later and i started. the first 3 people i met became my best friends. and 7 years later they still are.

sometimes greatleaps come from small heights, but they give such beautiful views.

one where you can say, that even the bad moments you wouldn't change.  

ox  

 i woke up at a friends house after filming a video. got home quickly washed, then went to another friends place. we watched my name is earl. then i went home and straight to bed. 

the norm

 a bottel of water, a yellow tullip, and a train ticket to somewhere i'd never been. you don't need money to have moments you'l never forget.

a few things...
i took a chance, a leap, a fall, i let down my walls, and allowed my heart to lead me.
i made a very odd video for a compertion (plug in baby spoof)
i bought tickets for a gig on a whim
i went to london for a private exhibtion at the tate modern
i fell in love. the most craziest thing i could have. 
ow and refusing to give up on love, i'm not going to get over it or move on, i'm going to keep it close to me, to make me smile when i'm most hurt. To give me joy when all is dark, and to remind me of you always.

a little of both. more the latter. stuff tends to just happen to me for no reason at all. the most obscure and random things. i think when something does happen, to not be scared, and to go with it. No regrets, because you can never know what moments will change your life.

it would get split up i surpose. i would spend time with my family doing normal things. watching wrestling with my dad, and singing to qeen with my mum.

 then have a 'dom' party with friends, us just geting drunk watching muse video's and laughing at odd shaped balloons, i would dance my ass off in a toga. 

then i would go to my loves home, and tell him how i felt, and spend the rest of my time in his arms.

peace.

 two large black dogs with voices and red eyes, where running through a house my family were looking into buying as we'd won the lottery. then i went to a friends house, and realised he lived close to my family, and i'd known him when i was young. then a zoo was attacked by strange beast's and i had to save the apes.